I’m apparently being left out again
Because I’m missing something
I should be seeing
Should be feeling
And yet, I experience nothing
Of what is intended for me
In the absence of such an event
It is a nonevent
A dangerous distraction
That if I preoccupy on too long
Will cause me to deviate
From my entered course
And crash into a gigantic wall
Where there is no end
To the torment
Of a wrong decision made
Even a right decision
At a wrong time
I should be heartbroken
Should be torn up inside
And all my pieces
Should be scattering
In tens of thousands of directions
Because I should not be able to go on
I should be devastated
I should be walking death
And yet I’m inside myself
With the relief I feel
And the thought that
What comes from this
Is what should have happened all along
We were young, now older
We were idealistic and brave
Now we’re realistic and even braver
Not because of the chance we took
But the choice we’ve made
For it is a far better thing
To walk away from this
As respectable human beings
Than to drag it out into something
That would belong on TV
In a bitter dispute or a sorry
disembrace
We decided to part ways
And I feel we are both
Destined for something better
When we are even older, even more
tempered
By the experiences that life
Will throw at us
Maybe together, most likely apart
But something special
For both of us
Because of what we still hold
In our hearts…
Sense enough to persevere
And strength enough
To hold each other up if necessary
As we disintegrate
From our non-eternal bonds…
